Kate

For anyone who has been following I have asked a lot of questions concerning life/reality in previous blogs. I have come to the realization that I don't have the answers, nor will I ever learn the answers... without the help of Jesus.
Why do we as Christians take these problems upon ourselves and assume we know everything? Like we can really handle anything. Honestly with out trusting in the Lord we are all a bunch or useless bodies walking around depressed 75% of the time.

I have learned a lot in the last month coming back to Bethany, some things that I should have already known and others life lessons I will never forget. One thing that people generally struggle with is the lesson of Forgiveness. Christians especially, the Bible teaches us in the Lords prayer “Forgive us our debts, as we also forgiven our debtors.” When do you know if you have actually forgiven someone…? Maybe it is not a question of forgiveness but of trust. As I asked before what do you do when someone hurts you without even meaning to do it… I am attempting to understand why things of this matter happen. I know one other person whom I share (you know who you are) things with and is experiencing the same daily anguish as I. We sometimes come to conclusions with things and then something else is thrown into the equation. Through all of it though we keep each other accountable to “put our safety bar down, and to guard our hearts” I really appreciate my friendship with this person and I just want to thank you for being there to talk to! As for getting back to being able to forgive…. There is this weird feeling you get when someone has done something and you are attempting to get through the tough situations. It is so easy to fall back into routine and want what you used to have. We must not forget to listen to the little instinctive feelings we get sometimes when we know things just aren’t right or they are never really going to be the same again. This is the obstacle that I find truly hard to overcome not only from recent past issues but long term ones that occurred when I was just little. Which in turn can cause getting over things of the same cause harder even though they are not of the same magnitude, although at the time they hurt just as much. Am I making any sense? Right now I am torn in a situation, battling what my mind says and what my heart is telling me… I wish no one to be in the predicament that I have seemed to have fallen into once again; it is definitely a difficult one to sort through.
As for trying to get through things, I have learned to take on day at a time. Give people a second chance, God loves us so much he gave all of us second chances, and then some…so give someone the benefit of the doubt, cause if you don’t you may be missing something great.

There is a time for healing
There is a time for purposes under the sun
There is a time for laughter
There is a time to let go and a time to hold on

So we are here
Why are we waiting?
Why are we acting like dead men walking?
The time has arrived
For us to arise
Joining our hands
United together

For this is our time to be strong
This is our time to rise up
To stand and be counted
This is our time to believe
You know in our God we are free
Let the world know to Him we belong

Lord, capture our hearts now
Drowned out the pleasures and treasures that bind us
Give us your courage
To be strong to be brave and to never back down
There is no time to loose
We can’t be silent
For a world that is dying to find out the truth
We’ve got the hope
We’ve got the answer
Lay down our own with reckless abandon

For this is our time to be strong
This is our time to rise up
To stand and be counted
This is our time to believe
You know in our God we are free
Let the world know to Him we belong

posted by Kate Patterson @ Friday, February 07, 2003